Oh you’re a female that eats in front of males and prefers converse to heels, you’re so original oh my god you don’t paint your nails and you like pokemon wow you must be the only female that likes video games and you have more male friends than female friends holy shit you are so fucking unique jesus fucking christ lemme just gush over the fact that you are so unique that you play video games and you sit with your legs open cause wow you are a female and those are only for males holy shit wow you are so original jesus christ man i can’t handle your originality you must have pioneered originality when i open the dictionary there’s you with your legs open and you’re playing video games and your name “miss original” is right there holy shit you must be the most originalest bitch ever you are like no other girl.
I think being ‘beautiful’ is more than having good physical appearance,i think a genuine heart makes someone ‘beautiful’
My mum always taught me this. If I said somebody was beautiful she’d say “no, she’s sexy. She’s not beautiful because she’s not smiling and she’s not being friendly to anyone.” I think it’s so true. You can look good but I think beauty is something that’s a lot deeper than physical attraction.
Ever since I was younger I’ve loved acting. I used to go to drama clubs after school and did loads of pantomime type performances. I did drama up to As Level but when my confidence was drastically lost at the end of year 12 I dropped it and haven’t thought much about it since. I regret that totally because I did so well and I really wanted to go somewhere with it! I think if my confidence was higher I would have auditioned for so many drama schools by now and hopefully have got into one.
I want to be so many different typed of women when I’m older (a policewoman, a fire fighter, a teacher, a secretary, a nurse, a teacher, a housewife, a WAG, rich, poor, married etc. etc) and if I was an actor I could be so many different people. BOOOOOOOOO what am I going to become :(
I bought a book yesterday for my New Year’s Resolutions. I’ve written out the ones I made for 2010 and 2011 and written whether I achieved them and how so. It always makes me feel excited to see my Resolutions, I think they’re a fun challenge to set for yourself :)
This guy I really like is asking me to wait for him, as in we can start going out and being a couple more towards the spring. But he won't wait for me...he has a girlfriend and when I tried to leave he begged for me to stay and told me how much he loves me.
He doesn’t know what he wants and that’s fair enough because not everyone does. But he’s playing with you and he’s doing it because he knows he can get away with it when he tells you he loves you and that he doesn’t want him to leave. Either he wants you now or he loses you forever… Or you can keep up with the up and down, back and forth. It’s up to you x
Somebody claims that he loves me! But I dont think he really does :( Haha I think he's looking for company. Sad.
He could love you but I reckon you’d know if he did so you’re probably right he’s just looking for company. Tell him he doesn’t need to proclaim his love for you if he wants company though, there’s no need to ruin something nice :)
Work was so booming last night. We made 5k behind the bar (it’s a really small bar) and Birdie and Sam had to come down from the kitchen and help. It was a bit of a cock fest so I wasn’t complaining ;) but tonight is going to be twice as busy for 2 hours longer :’((((((((((((((((((((((
Today is the busiest Friday of the year so work is going to be packed. We were fucked last night, still closing the pub until gone 2am I am dreading the next two nights. Tonight will be mayhem and Christmas eve we’re open until 1am. I didn’t realise what I was letting myself in for!!
Something you feel strongly about: Near enough everything I have an opinion I feel strongly about. Off the top of my head: work ethics. I think everybody needs a strong work ethic and to understand that money should be earned. I have no respect for able people who aren’t in work and are not looking for work. So many people I know sponge of their parents/my taxes and unless they’re in full-time education, I think it’s unacceptable. Anyone can join a job center. The amount of people who complain about ‘immigrants’ stealing their jobs and are then unwilling to apply for a job in McDonald’s or KFC is ridiculous. Don’t complain about something if you’re unwilling to make a difference to it.
Something you always think ‘what if…’ about. Everything. I’m a ‘what if..’ kind of person haha. ‘What if you were driving on the M25 and an elephant walked across the road?” but in my head there’s always a ”what if I had a greaaaaat body…”
Something that you’re proud of: Becoming Team Leader at work
A problem that you have had: This is so vague… Until a few weeks ago I was having anxiety and panic attacks a couple of times a week. That was a big problem!
Your accademics I was a brainbox in primary school, then in my year 9 SATs I got a level 8 in maths (still proud). I did well in my GCSEs getting, I think, 13 A-C. Fucked up at A level and it’s gone down hill from there. I’ve got 2 As levels (A and C), 1 A level (D) and a merit for my music BTEC.
Bullet your whole day: 9am - got up, had some porridge then packed and got ready to leave. 10.30am - left for Portsmouth. 12 - took the wrong exit and got lost so arrived at my Granddad’s 1 hour late….. Did nothing until my tuna steak dinner at 7pm. After I made plans with Lizzie tomorrow ;)
Things you want to say to an ex: You’re a disgusting person so I have decided to burn your cardigan even though I really really like it.
Your views on mainstream music: It’s mainstream for a reason. I personally like most ‘chart’ music.
How important you think education is: Incredibly. Not necessarily to degree level, that depends on the individual but I think everybody needs some form of education even the most basic.
I am driving to Waterlooville tomorrow on my own. It’s going to be the first long journey I’ve ever driven and I’m doing it alone which is a bit scary but well worth it! I really cannot wait to see my granddad.